Last Sunday my sister and her husband lost their 5 year old daughter, Stella. She had been sick with the flu and her heart just stopped. The news rocked all of our families. I just came home today from the services to celebrate her life and had to share a couple thoughts. The death of a child is so unnatural. It just goes out of the natural order of life. When driving the 12 hour drive the next day to be with my sister, I was so worried about seeing her and her husband, 3 year old son and 2 month old daughter. I thought, “How are they going to get through this one, Lord?” How are we going to support them? When we arrived we all grieved together for the loss of our sweet Stella. Through the intense grief, I saw in my sister and her husband intense joy. Because of their faith they had HOPE in the new life of Stella. My sister said joyfully that she had done her greatest job- she had gotten her daughter to heaven.
Stella was such a joyful girl with a strong love for Jesus. She was a sensitive soul and a heart not of this world. She had the sweetest voice, the curliest curls and dimples that melted you. She adored her brother and sister.
My remaining thoughts on this week were this: we have today. I have today- with my girls, with my husband with strangers with friends. I have this one special day to show LOVE. I don’t know about the future but I know I have now. I want each moment to count and know I’ve done all I can to love fully each day and to live with the joy of a child.
We are never to young. We are never to old. It is never too early. It is never to late. We are never to rich or poor. We are never not good enough or too good. NOW is the time to choose LOVE.
A 5 year old child taught me purity, innocence and unbridled joy in daily life. It’s reminded me to love my God with the innocence and passion of a child.
I witnessed my sister and her husband smiling through the funeral celebration. There was joy and peace exuding through them. My sister has shown me the meaning of suffering with love, intent and peace and the grace of a holy woman responding to her vocation and devotion as a mother. Through God’s grace, she is stronger than she ever thought.
And my God has shown me that there’s nothing wrong with suffering. I’ve feared suffering for years. I never thought I could do it. But I realize it’s not scary. It’s hard and I know harder moments are to come. It hurts. But His sweet grace is available. Elizabeth Leseuer said “It IS a gift to love, suffer, and pray, always with the joy that comes from Jesus.” Now I understand that gift.
I choose joy. I choose to not let sorrow be wasted. I choose LOVE. I choose peace and I choose His endless grace. That’s another thing I’ve realized. We can’t always choose what happens in life. We can sit back and fight it and become hardened and angry. Or we can embrace the path we walk on and allow our hearts to grow fuller and richer and show that to others in each day we have.
For our little Stella Maria- For the cause of LOVE.
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