Signing Off
December 2, 2011 8:06 amZach and I got married 9 years ago. We were young. I was 22 and he was 21.
We have known each other since I was 7 years old. We both went to school at Cal Poly in San Luis Obispo. Veeerry long story short we got engaged when he was 20 and I 21 and moved back home to Santa Cruz after 3 years of college to finish school here and begin our new life together around our family and friends.
(our first christmas at home with Zach’s family)
I did poorly in college. I mean really poorly. Despite my family’s emphasis on education growing up,I completely took this gift of education that I was given for granted. Growing up we went to visit colleges across the country and my parents and relatives always encouraged us to work hard and gave us every resource we needed to succeed. I never tried hard and it showed. When we moved here, with little motivation, I decided to do some work at the community college to get my grades up and finish at a local state school.
After 8 months of marriage I unexpectedly became pregnant. At first we were shocked. Once that shock wore off, we got a little more used to the idea. At 7 weeks I was home by myself taking a shower preparing for our first doctors appointment and I passed out in the shower. I crawled out and got sick on the bathroom floor while going in and out of consciousness. I somehow pulled myself together and got to the couch and began feeling “better”. Zach came to pick me up for my doctors appointment where he had to carry me to the car. I, in my youth and ignorance, thought this was bad morning sickness. At the doctors they couldn’t find the baby’s heartbeat. I passed out in the exam room again and was just out of it. They wanted me to come back in a week to check for a heartbeat.
I got better throughout the day. But the next day I began bleeding. We called the doctor and it was concluded that I was miscarrying. We were both very sad. It was such a whirlwind- getting married, getting pregnant, losing a pregnancy. I went in a week later, by myself, to check and make sure the miscarriage had taken its course. As I was getting my exam the nurse who was doing the ultrasound began freaking out- like cursing freaking out. All of a sudden she pulled out the doppler and I hear a heart beating. I was so confused, you have no idea. She ran out of the room and I was left in there wondering what in the world was going on. She came back in and brought me into the doctors office. At this point I had called Zach and he rushed over because we both knew something was wrong. They told me that I did not miscarry. I was, in fact, still pregnant. It was a tubal pregnancy and my tube had ruptured and I had been bleeding internally for a week now. They rushed me into emergency surgery where they cauterized my tube and removed the two liters of blood that were close to my brain at that point. If it would have gone any longer, I might have been in big trouble.
What came after was months of sadness, depression and post traumatic stress. I was so young, with none of my other friends even married. I felt like I had no one to relate this deep sadness to. I was so worried that I wouldn’t be able to get pregnant again. Zach and I grew so close during this time. But any little motivation left I had for school disappeared. I continued to work at the school my children now go to and just kept telling myself and others that I’d go back to school soon.
Slowly, through nothing but the grace of faith, I got better. A year later I got pregnant with Isabel. We were both so thrilled to be becoming parents. Because of my previous traumatic experience I have always had to work through deep anxieties during my pregnancies, but we have successfully had three beautiful and healthy children.
Isabel Valentina Maria
Ava Grace
Giselle Antoinette Jeanne
Zach has always been so supportive of me being a stay at home mother. I think we’re both so grateful that I’ve gotten to be home with our children, working my hardest to love them , instill a deep faith in them and take care of our home and their lives in it. Once all the children came, I never desired to go back to school. I was so fulfilled in this space. Then I began doing creative things that nourished me, who I was. I began sewing. Slowly at first, then it became a deep rooted passion. A couple years after beginning sewing, I started a blog, My Mama Made It, to catalogue things I had been doing for the girls and had begun sewing for me. It was my outlet, my own thing, my own space. I never thought it would go anywhere, I just thought it was fun. I always allowed it to be whatever the Lord desired it to be. I didn’t have aspirations or goals for it. It just brought me joy. Slowly it began growing. Things got bigger and went places I never imagined. But I always left it in God’s hands and just went with the open doors that came with it.
Fast forward to this year and I have two children in school, one at home.
Things are so different for me with just one at home. I began realizing in a couple of years, I will have no children at home to mother during the day! (tears) Where did the time go? Weren’t they just born? (right now ‘Sunrise, Sunset’ from Fiddler on the Roof is playing through my head.) Through a small sequence of events which I won’t make this post any longer with, the Lord awakened a deep desire in me within in a flash.
I want to be a teacher.
After ten years- re enter college. I begin the college journey again at the age of 32. I’ve decided to finish online so I can still be at home with Giselle and fully present to the family. I haven’t chosen an online program yet (any recommendations??) and the thought of the work, effort and costs are quite daunting. But Zach and I both feel it’s, no doubt, the right path. I think I have about three years to complete the program.
Re-enter the blog. I’ve been praying over the last few days asking God what the purpose of me having the blog was. I was just plain curious. I realized something so important and so very humbling. What sewing has done for me, nothing else could.
It’s taught me patience, determination, research, precision, motivation, the importance of quality, and follow through. Working on something for hours, never giving up, working hard and seeing your finished product in the end has given me a feeling of success that I never had before. I love that about sewing.
Then the blog, where to begin. What YOU have taught me and helped me with is self confidence. Having something that was mine that people liked and praised. I began believing in ME, in the abilities that God has given me. I had to work hard to discover them but he helped me dig and then such beautiful things grew from this little garden He planted within me. It was always His and when I allowed Him to water it how He saw fit, things grew that I didn’t know existed within me. For all the comments, emails, encouragement, constructive criticism and for just following along, thank you. You have no idea how much it’s done within me.
Small fears have already crept in. Can I do this? Can I do all that I do at home well and do school? What if I won’t be as good at this as I hope to be? But I just have to try my hardest, with this new desire and motivation and…. trust.
So tying that all in with beginning college again, I know I couldn’t begin again without all the lessons I’ve learned along the way. I still feel terrible for squandering the opportunity the first time. It was my own poor choices. But I’m going to finish what I started, this time with much more heart and passion that has grown in me through my journey here.
To finish school, be a stay at home mother and wife, and run this blog would be impossible for me. Something would suffer. So as my faith is always first and my family is next I must let go of the blog. It would just be too much work and diversifying of attention. And I really want to do school right this time around. I still had so many things to show you and ideas are still swarming through my head, ones that I’ll now never post. Letting Made By Lex go leaves me in a slight state of grief, but I also feel so much peace about it. The Lord has allowed it to serve it’s purpose in my life, one that I had no idea of originally. I might pop in here and there, who knows. But my intention is to focus my full attention elsewhere. The website will still be up so you can still check al the tutorials, and access anything you need, and my etsy shop will still be active.
With excitement, tears, trepidation, and gratitude I humbly say
Posted in Uncategorized | 104 Comments »
By Aubrey Leong on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
*sniff sniff* We’ll miss ya Lex!! I really have enjoyed your blog over the years..given me lots of inspiration. I’m excited for you though!! Way to follow your dreams…I’m sure you will be a fabulous teacher!!
By Donna on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Wow. I got really teary when I read this. Thank you for letting us into your heart, and your creative genius. Best of luck to you
By Regina on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Dear Lex,
I’ve been following your blog for a quite a while now and have always loved that the foundation of your life is God and your relationship with him. I never saw this one coming… I definitely was expecting your designing skills to flourish and eventually grace the covers of magazines and runways the world over. But this new venture that you’re taking on, it’s a grand one. I love that you’ve prayed about it for so long and feel the Lord is leading you right to this place.
I wish you the best of luck in your school days and hope you find peace and courage throughout all of this.
God Bless…
Regina
By Jen on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
So sweet! My husband and I are going on 8 years and we have been married since we were 22. So we were “kids” too when we got married. I loved reading your story about your babies, I have 4 kids and I count my blessings everyday for having 4 sweet little kiddos running around.
By Katie p on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
I will miss your blog but wish you the very best in your endeavors! You will go far! With a faith like yours, anything is possible! Good luck and God bless!
Katie
By Jen on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
p/s I’ll miss your blog, good luck with school. I totally understand the school thing. I didn’t even bother going after high school it wasn’t till after I was married did I decide to go(4 years later). I’m glad I went it was hard work and in the end it was worth it and I am happily teaching preschool.
By Jenn on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Oh I’m so sad to see you go! I just subscribed to your blog and feel like I haven’t gotten the chance to really enjoy all you have to offer. I will now pour over the archives instead. BEST of LUCK to you in your new journey !!!!
By Susan Suddjian on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Alexis, this is SUCH a beautiful account of your wonderful life. I am so happy for you that you are pursuing your dreams and becoming a teacher. Take it from me, who returned to school and got two professional licenses at 45, YOU CAN DO THIS! Yes, it will be hard, and yes, it will cost you time, money, and sacrifice, but it is certainly within your grasp. I’ll pray for you at adoration every Friday! You will be fine.
Love in Christ,
Susan Suddjian
By Desi Wilson on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
God’s favor has certainly been on you! I have enjoyed your blog immensely; and will be sad to see it go.
You are doing the right thing with God and family. Best wishes!
Desi
By Lan on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
i have never commented on your blog but now i feel compelled. the best of luck to you.
you will be missed on my feed.
By Christina on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Thank you for sharing this with us. You will be a fantastic teacher, just think about how many people all over the world you have tought already. Your tutorials show that you can explain things in a simple, easy to understand way; you have bags of ceativity, which is essential for a teacher and you are bringing up three children, a very good practise (I found teaching 30 children a lot easier than some days with just my two). I am sure you will be a great inspiration for all the children you are going to teach! Good luck.
By Jen Crandall Villareal on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Lex, I am so very proud of you! What a brave decision! I know it will be hard but you will do well & I KNOW you will be an excellent teacher!! Congratulations on making these first steps towards your goal. I can’t wait to hear about your progress/ if you’re ever up for sending out an update, we’d love to read all about it! Hope you & your beautiful family have a wonderful holiday season & hope to see you soon. Much love, Jen
By Jen on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Lex- I haven’t commented on your blog much, but it was one of the first sewing blogs I started to read and very inspirational to me, and to starting my own sewing blog. Thank you for all of your hard work! Good luck with school and I know you will accomplish your dream!
By Linnea on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
I too have such a similar story. Had the best college opportunities and I threw them away. Did poorly and took it for granted. Got married at 21, had kids young, lost 3, and now, after 4 kids, youngest being 2, I am back in school. Being 32 in school is hard, especially with kids at home. I am nursing major, so some are online and some are at campus. Its tough, but so fulfilling. Way to go! You will be amazing. You will cry, you will laugh, you will wonder what you are doing, but in the end it will be so worth it. Even though we have never met, I will find comfort knowing someone in the same situation is going through the same thing! Good luck in all you do!
By Heather on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Lex, I just found you today and only to find out that this is going to be your last post. I am so sad and yet, we’ve only just “met.” I too, am a stay at home mom and have just recently gotten into sewing and your tutorials will be visited often by me. Thank you for leaving that as a legacy to the wannabe craftresses like me that will need the support often! Good luck to you and your endeavors and hopefully, I’ll “see” you soon.
XOX
By Rachel on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Well, I will truly miss reading your blog but I understand exactly what you have to do. Trying to do too many things and you will not do any of them well! You will probably be an awesome teacher! Just imagine what you, with all your creativity, will bring to a classroom! I started my quest to be a teacher at age 30 (finished at 36-took it slow). Taught for a few years and then–I got my babies and am now a stay at home mom. I had to wait until I was older to get pregnant (ectopics)so I sorta did the opposite of you. Maybe in the future you can start a blog as a teacher-posting ideas/crafts to do in the classroom! Blessings on your journey. Seek God first and all things will fall into place after that!
By Patricia Bryant on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
wow alexis! i never knew your journey into motherhood. so touching and moving. what a beautiful and inspirational post! i wish you nothing but the best as you start school again and it is apparent that you will be an amazing teacher.
By Erica P on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
I’ve really enjoyed following your blog, and I’ll be sad to see it go! However, it sounds like great things are happening in your life, and it is very wise of you to say “no” to this one thing, even if it’s brought you joy. Best of luck in your endeavors! I’m about to stop being a teacher to be a full time mom! Teaching is wonderful, and I imagine having the experience of your own children before you start teaching will equip you well in the classroom.
By Michelle on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Lex – “My Mama Made It” was the first crafty-mumma-blog I discovered – it has been such a pleasure getting to “meet” you! Best of luck to you in your future endeavors! Your faith, talent, and creativity will take you far!
God Bless!
By Laura on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Thank you, and may God bless you in all that you do!
By stephanie on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
My Dear Alexa…you will do amazing I have an abundance of faith in you and all you have done and will do. My path was somewhat similar ..Mom wanted me to go to College but LOL!! I said I want to stay at home and take care of my baby sister Jennifer (ten years younger than me) so my nursing career never quite made it. I am happy though …I love you and your family ..
By Marlena on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Thank you for sharing your story. I will miss reading your blog, but it sounds like a great next phase in your life. Good luck!
By Priscila on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Thank you for sharing. Your designs and passion for sewing have been so inspiring to me. I hope to one day learn how to sew like you. I’m a teacher too, and I love what I do. I wish you the very best!!!!!
By Nicole L. on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
That’s so exciting! While I will miss checking your blog and seeing all the creative things you post, I know that you can’t do everything!
Have a great time with the newest adventure!
By jessica on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
you will be missed! i found your blog right after i started sewing a couple years ago and have so enjoyed following you. I’m a teacher and know you will love it! good for you!
By CathGrace on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
I have the perfect university for you to look into, it’s a proper accredited one (many of the online one’s aren’t) you can use government grants and loans (the non accredited ones can’t use them) and they give you all your undergrad textbooks for free.
http://www.apus.edu/
They have a military branch of this university that the government encourages military members to use, and it really is the best at home university system I have ever found (I did most of my undergrad there, only switching to a brick and mortar school when my husband was stationed in one place long enough, and my kids were gone at school all day.) You can even go on to get a master’s degree from them. (the other cool thing is you can start classes monthly – new 8 or 16 week classes start every month.) If you have transfer credits that you would like to have transferred, you can do that too, which some online schools don’t allow.
Good Luck!
By Shantel on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
I will truly miss your posts! I feel that if I knew you in person I would be your friend, we both love God and our family’s first, sewing of course but then there are other things that we both enjoy as well, our healthy eating and gluten free/low eating.
I wish you well on the journey and you will be a great teacher, I know because you have taught me so much!
thanks for everything!
shantel
By Mauri on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
What a wonderful post! I am a stay at home mom and I love it, but sometimes I know there is more I want to do with my life. I have two still at home with me, but I know the time will go by quickly (too quickly) and I will be wondering what to do with them all away at school. Good luck with your new life adventure. I’m sure you’ll do great!
By Jen Owens on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
I’m really going to miss reading your blog! You’ve inspired me to finish all of those sewing projects I have piled up in the closet. Thank you for sharing your time with us. Best of luck with your teaching career!!!
By Julie Rae on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Congratulations! I taught high school for four years and am now back in school and it is great. I love learning again and I hope that you do too. If you are looking for an online program, be careful, there are some less reputable ones out there. I would like to recommend Western Governor’s University – its affordable, not-for-profit, and fully accredited. I’ve not been through the program personally, but it has a pretty good reputation in the higher education world for an online school.
Best of luck!
By Lisa on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
You are so talented, Alexis! I have had so much fun following your blog and am sad to see you go! That being said, I wish you all the best in your next chapter!
By Anika on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Good luck in this new chapter. Finishing my education is still on my to-do list. I have a great career and an amazing family, but I will always have this longing to finish what I started. I have really enjoyed your blog and know you will be very successful in this next stage!
By Fay on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Oh Lex,
I know that I don’t actually know you, but I’m sending hugs and prayers your way. Being a SAHM takes so much faith and self-confidence in this world we live in, and going back to school takes a lot of courage. I’m still finishing my degree, on-and-off, and online has definitely been the way to go in my case. I pray that you will learn and do all that you need to at this point in your life, and I know that as you turn to our Heavenly Father, you will be filled with inspiration to lead and guide you aright. All the best to you. A beautifully creative mind like yours will be hugely appreciated in a school setting. Best of luck!!!
By Holly on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Your blog has been my “go-to” for fashion inspiration, I will miss your designs. I wish you well with this next step in your life. Hope you are able to post every once in awhile on how things are going as you are an encouragement to many!
By Helen Grace on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
I’ve loved following your blog and will miss hearing about your life. Wishing you all the best, blessings you to and your family!
Helen
By seeks on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Sad to see you go, but so glad that you are off to do something that feels this important to you. Having had a number of miscarriages, I know the experience is never easy. But I love knowing that you and your family found your way through it, and is now on to bigger things. Best of luck. Looking forward to your occasional drop-in visits.
By Jess on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
I’ll miss you, yet am so very excited for this new chapter in your life, and love that you have your priorities straight
And look, there’s your lovely face. It’s nice to finally see all of you.
Now, go make a huge impact in the lives of thousands of kids.
Be the good kind of teacher.
Jess
By Jennifer on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
The somber reality of life moving on makes me sad you will be signing off. However, even on that note, I am really proud of you going to school. Education is very important and I hope you will thrive with new experience! I appreciated learning more this time around when I started school again after a couple of years of not attending – I am sure it will be the same for you! I wish the best to you and your family and I will still keep your blog on my iGoogle page in hopes you’ll say hi once in awhile.
I am glad God gave you the peace in what you need to do in life. You are an amazing, beautiful woman with an equally amazing and beautiful family! I will miss your posts!!
~Jennifer W.
By Shelly on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Thank you for being a good example to everyone, and for not being shy about talking about your relationship with our Heavenly Father on your blog. I believe that He has a plan for us and that when we look back on certain stages in our lives, we can see how He has guided us through it all–even when we seemed lost and unsure about things! Perhaps all of the things that sewing has taught you–to work hard, have patience, and to never give up, etc.–were skills you needed to learn to do your very best as you pursue your education this time around. Good luck!
By Jamie on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
I am sad to see you go but pray the Lord strengthens you & enables you to do His will! Thank you for keeping your blog up & running so we can all learn still from you! Keep us posted now & then! I was a teacher before I started home schooling! My anniversary was yesterday, 10 years for us! I have always felt a connection to you for some reason even though we never met! I am a self taught sewer & thank you for all the inspiration! May the Lord bless your family! Jamie
By Hannah on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Booo hooo….
I will miss you and thanks again!!!
Dear Lex,
I had just found your blog and have read all of it!!! I was instantly addicted! Its so hard to find a blogger who writes,sews and photographs beautiful while still upholding morals and showing their love for God. You have inspired me and my sisters greatly. We will miss all of your wonderful tutorials and creations!!! I pray that you do well finishing school and that we get to hear from your occasionally
Hannah
By Jessica on Dec 2, 2011 | Reply
Your steps are ordered by God girl! It’s been fun following your sewing journey and I’m so excited for you in this next stage of your life! Who knows, maybe you will be back one day? Enjoy every day and I’m so proud of you and all that you have been able to accomplish! You truly are an inspiration to us all. Blessings!
By Suzanne on Dec 3, 2011 | Reply
I have been living in Kenya and have appreciate your recreating of clothing soooo much! i will be so sad to see you go, but so happy that you will be fallowing God’s path in your life! God always does all these things that seem senseless at the time, and down the road he brings it together and you realized he has been growing you for something special. it is so awesome to get to that stage and really see God’s hand in your life. teaching is such an awesome career, and with your creativity that will be an extra blessing to the students! thanks for your openness and honesty, and all your creativeness!
Suzanne
By bwilliams on Dec 3, 2011 | Reply
Lex, I begun college 13 years after high school, married with two kids. I commuted over a 100 miles per day as a full time student. I am now in my 21st year of teaching, and while it is not easy or financially great, it is a very rewarding career. Last year I completed an online graduate degree AND my National Board recertification process through East Carolina University (NC). I won’t lie to you and say that it was easy either time, but it is do-able. And, in my opinion worth the effort. You go girl!
By Katie on Dec 3, 2011 | Reply
I’m one of those “lurkers” who always reads your posts but never comments, but I just had to write today to let you know you have inspired me. I’m a completely random person to you, living hundreds of miles away, but you have motivated me to follow my heart and my passion for sewing. Thank you and good luck!
By Morgan on Dec 3, 2011 | Reply
Ill miss seeing all of your creative designs show up in my inbox! Good luck with school and congrats on finding a filling and wonderful vocation! You’ll make a great teacher!
By Jen on Dec 3, 2011 | Reply
Oh, how we’ll miss you! But you know what? I went back to school 2 years ago — at age 50! I also didn’t do well back in my 20′s. Five kids almost graduated from high school later, I’m a graduate myself with one associate degree and another one finishing up in May. Next fall it’s on to a bachelor’s degree. It’s hard work, but SO worth it! You are smart and resourceful and you’ll make a fabulous teacher. And what an example to your girls! God’s richest blessings on your new endeavor — and know that your wonderfully creative blog will be missed by us and waiting anytime you want to come back!
By sofia rave ksilone on Dec 3, 2011 | Reply
i wish you the very best with your studies, you will set a good example for other women. we are never too old to study . best wishes from a greek 35 that wants to study physical therapy.
By Vanessa on Dec 3, 2011 | Reply
Good for you! Congratulations! I will miss you. I have enjoyed keeping up with your blog. I am excited for you for your journey! I too am considering going back to school to be a teacher. I am headed to my introductory meeting on Monday:)
Take Care,
Vanessa
By Erika on Dec 3, 2011 | Reply
I don’t know if you will read this but I wanted to let you know how God has used your blog to open my eyes.
I’m going through school at the moment and sadly, like you, I also feel I’m not working as hard as I should. My family has always emphasized education growing up so this behavior in me is strange. I’m not trying hard and it’s showing. But reading this last post of yours has opened my eyes.
I can see myself in your past self. My dream is to become an elementary teacher but with my current habits, that might not happen so soon.
I think God caused me to stumble upon your bog at just the right moment in both of our lives to show me something.
I’m so sorry for the hard times you’ve gone through. But you’ve become such an amazing woman of faith. And through this post you’ve motivated a stranger miles away.
Thank you and God bless you in your future studying. I will be praying for your focus and peace. Let’s both work hard and become amazing educators!
By Karmen on Dec 4, 2011 | Reply
Hi, I just wanted to let you know that this is the most beautiful and eloquently written post I’ve ever read. I have enjoyed reading your posts and being inspired by your tutorials. I am sad to see you go but I understand that you must. I wish you much luck and success as you pursue your next endeavor.
By Deborah on Dec 4, 2011 | Reply
Hi! Just wanted to say that as an occasional reader, I will definitely miss your blog. Thanks for openly sharing your faith and letting it shine so brightly as what guides you. The good decisions are often the hardest, huh? God Bless you!
By Leoni on Dec 4, 2011 | Reply
Hi Lex, I will miss your blog. I have been following it since it was My Mama Made It. I especially loved the re-fashion posts – they inspired me and made me get out my sewing machine again after a long hiatus. Best wishes with your new endeavour. Wherever this path takes you know that you have touched many hearts.
lg xxx
By Karen on Dec 4, 2011 | Reply
Your students will be blessed. You will be missed here of course, but you are going on to do something wonderful. I wish you all the best.
Ironically, I was a teacher, and am now a new mother, sewist and blogger.
By A. Anderson on Dec 5, 2011 | Reply
Dear Lex,
I’ve been reading you blog for the last couple years. I’ve never commented before, but I wanted you to know that I have enjoyed the tutorials and ideas you have posted very much. I’m really sorry that you have to end this blog, but I understand and admire you for doing what is best for your family.
Thank you so much for all the time and energy you put in to your work and for being so generous as to share it with us.
May God bless you!!
By Maria on Dec 5, 2011 | Reply
Wow! What a great post! I am really happy for you finding your call. It will be sad not to see you around but it is for he best. Good luck in your new path and hope to “see” you again some time.
Maria @ Green Love Designs (previously @ My current hobby!)
By Rebekah on Dec 5, 2011 | Reply
Thank you for the inspiration you have given, and for the way you have given testimony of God’s grace in your life through the challenges you and your family have faced. I will miss your posts, but I pray God’s blessings on this new chapter of your story.
By Rozy on Dec 5, 2011 | Reply
Thank you so much for all your tutorials..I really enjoy reading your blog.
All the best in your future plan!
Hope to see you once a while here.
By Sewingelle on Dec 5, 2011 | Reply
Wow. What can I say?
Thank you-
for your blog,
for sharing your heart,
for inspiring though your faith.
All the very, very best
By Chelle Chapman on Dec 6, 2011 | Reply
Well……God works in mysterious ways Lex! Maybe it was not in His plan for you to finish school the first time as you have a new fire in your heart this time. God knows everything & we are NOT to question. I am SURE that what you are doing here is right. No, I do not know you but I do know God & thru Him we are technically sisters!!!! Your blog not only allowed great things to grow within you but thru you & your blog, you have touch so many others. More than I am sure even you are aware of! Everything happens for a reason. I am a firm believer in this. My own life is proof of that! You are a winner, I know this cuz you know Him & are NOT afraid to show others this light within you. It was a pure pleasure watching you grow in your endeavors & look forward to you “popping in/out”!!! I am prob one of your newest followers but have stalked you & your tuts & have learned from you & I thank you for this!
May God Bless You & Keep You!!!!!!
Chelle
By lizzie on Dec 6, 2011 | Reply
thank YOU Lex for share your entire soul, you are all inspired me a lot. Best wishes pretty Lex.
By Dawn on Dec 6, 2011 | Reply
God bless you in this next chapter of your life. You will be missed.
By Justine on Dec 6, 2011 | Reply
Im so sad that you’re leaving. But it’s good that you are. You need to focus on your family and school. School might be hard getting back into the habit of studying and writing again but you can definitely do this! I believe youll make an amazing teacher. Have you ever heard of university of Phoenix? They’re located in the bay area and also was originally created at SFSU! I am almost certain that they’re a online school. Since you’re in Santa Cruz maybe you can go to sjsu once your last baby starts attending school as well? Whatever you decide, wherever you decide to go, we’re behind you 100% of the way!
By kendascrafts on Dec 7, 2011 | Reply
Thanks for all the time and effort you’ve put in this blog. It has been appreciated and you will be missed. Good luck with the next chapter in your life, I know you are doing the right thing!
By Amy on Dec 7, 2011 | Reply
Love you dear friend and am sooooooo very proud of you!
By Heather dela Cruz on Dec 7, 2011 | Reply
Thank you so much for sharing your talents for so long. I wanted to encourage you…. if God is in this, then it is the right thing to do! I had a similar problem a few years back. I was teaching sunday school, directing the nursery ministries, working full time and doing a million other things…. I had to let go of some things I loved a lot in order to give school my very best. I’m glad I did.. I graduated in 2010 with Honors…making the Deans’ List was gratifying! I’m thankful I gave up the activities I did in order to focus on the path God has prepared for me. You will be just fine, sweet lady. God bless you!
By Megan on Dec 7, 2011 | Reply
Wow. What a story. Thank you so much for sharing from your heart. I wish you the best as you begin this new phase of life.
By Anna on Dec 7, 2011 | Reply
Thank you! Thank you for sharing your heart and creativity with me. I am inspired to continue to sew and I’ll never look at thrift store clothing in the same way. Blessings to the new challenges and adventures that are ahead of you!
By Jill Macknicki on Dec 8, 2011 | Reply
Your blog was one of the first I started following and some of your tutorials brought me back to sewing after many years…you will be missed. On a side note…I was looking at your family photo from your first Christmas with your husband’s family and I actually went to school with Favi and college with Josh & Favi (well I went to Cuesta at the same time) I was even at their wedding so many years ago…small world huh? Thanks for all the sewing inspiration.
By Shirley on Dec 8, 2011 | Reply
Dear Lex,
I hope you will come back to this blog someday. I love reading your tutorials and your writings and photos on your three lovely daughters. I will miss all these. But I must say you have my best wishes for going back to school and completing what you want to complete.
I wish you best of luck in school and may all the good things happen to you and your family.
Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
Cheers
By ShannonSews on Dec 8, 2011 | Reply
I found a passion for sewing about a year ago. I knew I loved it, but questioned whether I was good enough. Would I just end up embarrassing myself?
Around that same time, I found your website and read your About Me section and it really struck me. You were just an ordinary person like me who loved to create. You hadn’t had any formal training, you just went with your heart. And your natural talent unfolded.
You inspired me not to be afraid. And I’ve found a lot of enjoyment with my sewing and realized people actually like it. Thank you for being an inspiration to me. Now you will be an inspiration to hundreds of children. I can’t think of anything better.
Thank you and best of luck to you!! xo
Shannon
By Abby on Dec 8, 2011 | Reply
I hope the very best is ahead of you! Thank you for sharing so much of your talents with us. You are the first blog I ever started reading and are the reason I ever tried to sew for mysef. Now I have my own blog and my own Etsy store. Thanks for all the inspiration. God bless you and your family!
By Zach on Dec 8, 2011 | Reply
Lex,
I just want you to know how proud I am of you. Your development and growth over the years we have been married are astounding. I know you will continue to search after God’s heart in your life which will in turn lead you to many fulfilling roles and responsibilities. It is so powerful to hear of all the lives you have affected by your blog. I love you more than anything and I am so happy to be on this journey of life together. Thank you for teaching me to remember that God is ALWAYS faithful. Here’s to our next chapter together.
-ZJ
By Anna on Dec 9, 2011 | Reply
What a beautiful last post. You, undoubtedly, will be in the thoughts and prayers of all of us readers. You are going to be one incredible teacher, any student of yours will be blessed.
By Stacy on Dec 10, 2011 | Reply
Lex,
I ran across your website tonight from a pin on pinterest and I’m so glad I did. Your story is amazing and so inspiring. I dropped out of college after 2 years and never went back and I so wish I had. Don’t give up- You can do it! Your writing style and your way with words show that you will be an awesome teacher – your love for children and faith in God will carry you through. I’m praying for you and your family.
God Bless,
Stacy
By Kathy on Dec 12, 2011 | Reply
Lex-
I too got married young-2 days after my 20th birthday. I always wanted to be a teacher, in high school I was president of the future teachers club, but I didn’t have any money for college. So I got married, we had kids, bought a house, etc, etc, etc. Fast forward to 2008. I’m 49 years old, the kids are grown up and it’s time to do something for me. I enrolled in the local community college almost on a whim and it was the best thing I ever did (other than family of course). I was scared to death, but I love it. I take Honors classes, I have a 3.96 GPA and I’m now a senior. Until I graduate, I substitute teach at a school for children with special needs and I’m happy.It has been hard. It has been very hard. But I’ve done it. And so can you. I’ll miss you, but go spread your wings.
By Leigh Anne on Dec 13, 2011 | Reply
So sad to see you go, but it sounds like the right decision for ya’. Have always enjoyed your blog for the great inspiration…will still refer to the tutorials
Many Blessings in your future endeavors!!
By Laura on Dec 13, 2011 | Reply
I don’t know if you have looked into Chapman University. I got my teaching credential while pregnant and teaching at SSS…..it worked out really well for me. I attended the Monterey branch. They offer evening classes for those that work full time, but that might work for you and your family life.
By Deb on Dec 13, 2011 | Reply
I have enjoyed your blog and know that you will be blessed. You will be back to blogging when your life is in order. Bless you and your family.
By Mechelle on Dec 13, 2011 | Reply
I just found your blog through Pinterest and wanted to encourage you in your return to school. I did earn a degree when I was younger, but then stayed home to raise a family. At the age of 47, I just returned to school this fall with two online classes. It was a challenge, but successful and very fulfilling. How can you go wrong when following God’s leading?
By adva on Dec 15, 2011 | Reply
hi,
i almost never comment, but i want you to know your blog was the first blog i started to read and follow.. i waited for your posts. your ideas are wonderful and actually reading your blog brought me learn to sew 2.5 years ago. now i sew for my daughter (when i have time). its such a joy!
so, thank you lex.
i wish you good luck in fulfilling your dream!
adva.
By Jenny on Dec 15, 2011 | Reply
Lex,
You have been inspiring to others creatively and faithfully. The way you talk about God and your prayer life is so natural and inspiring. You can do anything your heart is set on doing and you having this blog and having “taught” others so many creative things with sewing and designing, it was preparing you for your next adventure. I wish you the best in going back to school. Just think of these past few years as better preparation – your girls, your designing, learning about so much more than just what is in books. Now you are ready.
I wish you the best in becoming a teacher!
Jenny
By Kaili on Dec 17, 2011 | Reply
good luck. and thanks for keeping the blog up. there are all kinds of things i have been waiting to try when i have time.
pleats, romper for my girl, etc.
thanks and i wish you the best!
By Crystal on Dec 22, 2011 | Reply
You have such an incredible story! Thank you for sharing. I only just came across your blog this week and I will be browsing through (and trying) the tutorials for some time I’m sure! Best of luck to you in your future endeavors and God bless!
By Anne on Jan 3, 2012 | Reply
A little late but best of luck to you in the New Year with your future endeavors. My husband also is back at school (and working FT)and at times for him it is overwhelming. Stay strong and stay fixed on your goal. I remind him during the hard moments that he is being a role model for our 2 daughters just by working hard to reach his goal. You will go thru tough times but in the end it will all pay off for you and your family. Best of luck.
Anne
By Kere on Jan 3, 2012 | Reply
Just over a year ago, I started sewing again and discovered a love for sewing. I googled looking for a shirt to dress pattern and found the dress you made and just had to make! I have been sewing ever since…..all kinds of things and loving every minute of it.
Thank you for the influence you had on me.
You are now off for your new adventure and I hope you love every minute of it…and if you don’t love the homework, I hope you love the fruits of your labor!
Take care and enjoy,
Kere
By Joyful on Jan 4, 2012 | Reply
I have been reading your blog for years and it has always brought me hope and inspiration. I am sad to see it go but so happy that you have the opportunity to take your life in a different direction. You’re going to do amazing! I pray God’s richest blessings on you as you continue on your adventure xx
By Lisa Green on Jan 5, 2012 | Reply
hello Lex,
i just popped over to your blog only to find your sign-off. it was a lovely thing to read, though, and so inspiring. although i’m a decade older than you, our stories are similar (young marriage/motherhood and that taking-educational-opp-for-granted thing!) i finally went back to college three years ago and will have my Bachelors at the beginning of next year. best wishes on your path – remember it’s one day at a time – and, God is right there with you every step of the way! : )
sincerely,
Lisa
By sarah on Jan 9, 2012 | Reply
So sorry to see you go!! I’ve very much enjoyed reading your blog – Thank you so much
– Good luck!
By Becky on Jan 9, 2012 | Reply
wow what a sign off. very heartful story true (and a real story at that).
i turned 40 last sept and in oct started a reflexology course. i too had my doubts, but like you i trust in Jesus and know He will see us thru…Good Luck and God bless you and your lovely family.
and thanks for leaving the blog on, i have used your tutorials.
By Michelle on Jan 13, 2012 | Reply
I just found your blog a couple of days ago and I’m loving everything already! I wish you the best of luck with your school. Thanks for keeping the blog up. I really am enjoying it!!! I think you are an inspiration and hope to see you post sometime.
By Jenni on Jan 14, 2012 | Reply
I WILL MISS YOU!!! I love your ideas and your posts. Thanks for allowing me to come along this journey with you. Many blessings in your endeavors ahead!
By Paris on Jan 19, 2012 | Reply
I recommend not going to Ashford they are not accepted in many states as accredited for getting your license. I am also going to school to become a teacher and have found Western Governors University where you pay by semsester work at your own pace so you can do as much or as little classes as you want. Mostly writing papers.
By Tiffiny Felix on Jan 28, 2012 | Reply
I just barely found your blog through Pinterest, and I got teary-eyed reading this post! I’m a mom of three girls (15 1/2, 9, 4 1/2), I never finished college, I have a food blog, and I wonder all the time if I should go back to school. I don’t know you, but I know how hard this choice was for you. Have a wonderful time in this next part of your life, and thanks for leaving your blog up so I can still enjoy everything you shared
By Deanna on Feb 19, 2012 | Reply
I just did the same thing with my blog. Its done, don’t have the time and my family deserves the best from me, especially living here in Africa. I checked your blog weekly, so sad to see you go but of course understand completely! Enjoy! BTW you have a beautiful family and extended family!
By Ai on Mar 8, 2012 | Reply
i am a stay at home mom as well and your site inspires me in so many ways not just to pursue and honed my skills in sewing. best of luck in your dreams. I am happy with your decision.
By Jena on Mar 11, 2012 | Reply
I need to tell you that I searched tonight for about 1/2 hour or more trying to find “this one blog” that I found sometime back… Well, I found you… and I have to say I am disappointed to hear that you won’t be continuing your blog. BUT I’m so happy to hear you are doing something new and courageous! – I wanted to tell you that I remember your blog because you write and come across as so down to earth. You stood out to me. I love your creations and your humility. I’ve enjoyed reading what the Lord is doing in your life and how He is leading you. Thank you for sharing!
I have three little ones too and also never finished university. (one year shy) So… some day I hope to take that leap and finish what I started.
Thank you again. Your work is beautiful.
By Kristy on Mar 18, 2012 | Reply
Rats!! I just found this blog and I love it so much. I’ll thoroughly enjoy looking through the rest of it. Thanks for all your inspiration.
By Tracy on Mar 21, 2012 | Reply
I don’t know if you’ll get around to reading this, but I wanted you to know that this story about your journey is very touching and inspiring. I hope for the best for you and your family. Good luck in this next step!!
By Trudy Callan on Apr 7, 2012 | Reply
I applaud you in your decision, but I also think of the ache of not being with the children at home anymore and not being able to use your creative passions as much. So just for food for thought, another option would be to keep the children home and homeschool them; then you could continue with your passion and continue spending all of that wonderful time with your children, teaching and pouring into them instead of someone else’s children. You could still go back to school, but when they were grown, if you wanted to. They grow so fast. It’s a way to have as much time with them before they are no longer little.
By Bromeliad on Apr 13, 2012 | Reply
Have fun.
Who knows. Maybe you will teach home ec some day.
That would be a rockin’ cool home ec class.
By Crystal on Apr 15, 2012 | Reply
Dear Lex,
Good luck!
You will be sorely missed! I’m excited for you in your new opportunities. When my first daughter was born (about 2 1/2 years ago) I discovered the blog-world and your blog in it. I have always dreamed of becoming a designer one day and your blog was so inspiring for me to try new things in my own meddling in design. I appreciate you sharing with us all! I’m sad to see you go, but I commend you on your choice to better yourself, and to do what the Lord would have you do with your new passion to teach, and your running passion for your family. Please do pop back in here now and then! I’m sure we’d all love a report sometime to see how you’re doing
By Crystal on Apr 15, 2012 | Reply
P.S. – If you end up teaching draping or design, please tell me where!
By Sam on Feb 3, 2013 | Reply
I don’t know how I ended up here at 3am – I’ve never been to your blog before… This post and the one after (earlier chronologically) touched me so deeply! I’m weeping, but it is cathartic. When I was 22 I had a pregnancy that went all wrong. Repeated mistakes by my “top-of-their field doctors” (to this day I wish I had sued, not for the money but they never even apologized for what they put me through and should have lost their licenses) led to a very painful, late-term loss of the pregnancy (I was an unmarried, immature kid and had to go through general anesthesia surgery, weeks of recovery in bed and even found myself lactating!). I was lucky to have incredibly supportive parents and a boyfriend who cared for me (although he did break up with me a couple of months later).
I’m almost 40 now and I am blessed to have a 7 (!!) year old daughter who is the best thing that has ever graced my life. This has been a tough year, though, and I’ve been very depressed and find it hard to enjoy anything (I also have frequent chronic migraines that don’t respond to treatment either traditional or alternative – I’ve tried literally *everything*) or be fully present in my life, including being a mother (and then I get more depressed because I know that my dd is growing up so fast and I’m missing so much). 13 months ago my father died at 66, 2 weeks later my ex-brother-in-law (and college friend) died, the week after last Mother’s Day one of my oldest friends (since I was 3) died and then 3 weeks ago my 29 year old brother died. Of the four of them, only my father had been ill – the other three were sudden and violent.
I live in CT, not far from Newtown. My daughter attends an elementary school just like Sandy Hook. That day (of the shooting) was already a difficult day for me as it was the 20th anniversary of the shooting that took place at my college while I was there, in which 2 friends (a professor and a student) were murdered and 4 others shot.
Thank you so much for honestly telling your stories, and for your creative blog! My heart goes out to your sister and your whole family over the loss of Stella. I don’t know what I would do, but I don’t think I could handle that with so much grace and faith despite the pain. You are all lucky to have each other (you are also all unbelievably beautiful women!).
Good luck to you with school and all of your future endeavors!